i wanted to go to sleep so the day pass quickly and i can see your face, but i cant sleep.
i watched TV, i went to shower, i checked my facebook, i emailed all my friends, i chatted with all the friends i have online, the hours passes so slowly the time goes so slow, i cant wait to see you, i cant wait to smell you, i cant wait to touch your hands, i cant wait to hold you so tie, i cant wait to hear your voice, and then i hear something, where it came from, its the sound of waking up, my alarm, another day pass buy without him around my life keeps going, it has been so long, am so lonely, missing you so badly, wish i could even see your face even by a coincidence, but where are you, You are just a shadow, memories, no way i can't regret, no more waiting, its time to wake up, i am dreaming, its over, life has to go on, be strong, i will never forget you, cuz you are always in my memories, no one can erase it except if i lost my memory, you were always everything, you were the one…..
it have been too long since last time i wrote in here but i really had nothing to write about, and then i found out that my life is empty like never, and even though if u have someone in it to make it full it still dose not help, still empty ..but that not what i wanna talk about but it also include it (
), well i fell bored i am bored becouse of this emptiness in my life . I traveled to another city to break this feeling but it didn't help me , i changed everything in my life but still nothing, something is missing inside of me not in the world around me, and i don't know what is it, but i feel that i lost something, but i don't know what is it . I met lots of people, lots as u can't even imagine and i knew lots of people, lots of kinds, smaller in age than me , bigger than me , girls, boys, Liberal, Muslim, Rastafarian, Agnostic, Russian, Swede, BRITISH., Moroccan, Polish, Germans, Slovenian , U.S., Jewish and Egyption. Am still 20, but everyone thinks that am still young, but as my age is 20 am not young, because i have faced lots of things in my life that make me bigger than my age ..I don't wanna go so far of my point, but as you see, as i met lots of people and i knew lots of things that changed my whole life, but i still feel bored .and i found out that its not only me who has this feeling, because every time i talk with one of my friends and ask about (her or his) life? the only answer i get BORED. and i always get shock, even though they have nothing to talk about except how is people, the only thing they care about is other people life…wow How boring!, even when i went down back to zagzig for couple of days i saw the same faces the same places they sit on the same everything, nothing changed, and even though these annoying guys that live thier life next to any shop corner or sitting on the back of the car just to make fun of everyone who is walking next to them, Specially Girls they can't escape from there bad comments, on how they look or what they are dressing, tthese guys really have nothing to do in there life, they just wake up and then go out to take there place in the corner and start there day making fun all day of people… i was asking my self, Is that the kind of men that i would marry one day?! wow, they are so boring have nothing to do in there life, back again to my point, that bored in everyone life, but those am talking about do nothing to change or to fill this emptiness in there life they like it, But i changed my whole life, that circle that every one run in it, it can't be broken or what, ITS SO DAMN BORING, but i know one guy who did broke that circle and can be creative, and this guy i respect so much, maybe he dosen't know it yet, but he is, and i like everything he do in his life, and i always wished to have a guy like him in my life, but he is too good to be for me, and i wish for him great life, as he wish for him self … and before i finish my article, i have to say that….. '' i don't know why i feel bored, but i hope i could find why one day'' M